Mom’s Purse Goes Rogue


It seems so wrong that her purse is on it’s own. It has never been more than about twenty feet from her for as long as I can remember. When she died today at 2:22pm (twenty-two has always been her special number) I clutched it close but it gave no comfort.

In a flash, she was gone. I can’t face going home without her now, so I’ve camped out at a hotel till I can retrieve her ashes and bring her back home. She would have loved this place and I’m just beginning to comprehend that the rest of my life will be filled with things I wish I could show her and tell her about.

For now, after ten long days and nights sleeping in her hospital room, I’m slipping under clean white sheets and dreading waking up in the morning to a world without her in it.

Goodbye Mom. But like that purse, you will never be far from me.

21 thoughts on “Mom’s Purse Goes Rogue

  1. First, Holly, my heart goes out to you. There is no real way for me to comprehend what you are going through, but I hope my prayers and thoughts do bring a little soft touch of comfort.
    After reading your words, I started to wonder what it might be like if I were to die and my only child and daughter were to have to take my purse away with her. What memories would she find inside the dusty nooks and crannies? I literally went to my purse and took a look. I immediately saw the horrible ink stain that had made me so angry when I made it. Then, came the Kleenex tissue of questionable status, a hairy chap stick without its lid, and the itty bitty bit left from a Reese’s wrapper that would have given away my secret. In light of your loss, these things didn’t seem so ordinary anymore. I thought about how my daughter would likely have a good laugh when she told people about how I “hated” purses(which I technically do) but that I was madder than a hatter when I blurped ink all over the precious thing. I really hoped that my inability to resist temptation (damn Reeses) might help herself see that it really is ok to be waaay less than perfect. Ultimately, my purse would be full of lots of little pieces of me… not much money, just little dust bunnies of Kim. What treasure your mom must have guarded in her purse and what better treasure keeper to pick than you. Yes, I’m sure she will be right there with you. (((Hugs))) Kim

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  2. Holly, I’m so sorry. I’ve been following your journey all the way, first with your dad and now your mother. May peace fill your heart during this difficult time. My prayers continue.

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  3. My condolences to you and your family. No words I can say will replace your Mom and Dad. More importantly, they behold you from above, and all that you know them to be will always be with you in Spirit. From that place they are free, and from that place they are more alive than when they were in this physical realm. God’s Blessings and Love to you all!

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  4. Holly we have lost so many great people this year — your wonderful Dad and now your Mother are both gone. I am so so sorry but God has a plan– what exactly, we don’t know. My love and prayers are with you as you have to adjust to a new life without them both. Peace and blessings to you!

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  5. It is now time for all of us to keep our candles burning. What a loss this is for you. Both Glenn and your Mother so close it seems impossible. Please know that all of us have you in our hearts. Not just for these 3 days but always.

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  6. Oh Holly, I’m so sorry for your loss. Loosing both of your lovely parents so close together…my heart is breaking for you. Rely on your memories for comfort and cherish them.

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  7. I am so sad to hear that your mother has passed. I know you are grieving but please rejoice knowing that she is with your dad now and forever. I believe this is where she wanted to be. You are in my prayers

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  8. There are no words that will assuage your grief. Just know you’re not alone. Many many of us are thinking about you. Across the miles we are with you.

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  9. Holly,

    So sad to hear of your Mom’s passing. I know you were close to her as you were with your dad. My prayers and thoughts are with you at this time. 😔🌹

    Dave House

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